Mistakes of my youth,
Rattle inside my brain,
Ghosts that weigh me down,
Sink me deeper into despair.
Mistakes of my youth,
Rattle inside my brain,
Ghosts that weigh me down,
Sink me deeper into despair.
Towards the end of last year, I learnt the valuable lesson in self-care by staying firm with my boundaries, even at the risk of conflict and saying goodbye to a few people in my life. This year seems to be a fight and a test of strength, but if it’s taught me anything, it’s that I can heal and celebrate my inner child.
Read More »My voice is strangled,
Words cut off from the source,
I wish so much to tell you things,
But if I do, I wonder what you’ll think-
Of me by the end.
I thought I could tell you everything,
Then I realised that by doing that,
I pushed myself further out to sea,
And now I’m drowning.
Home bird,
It’s time to start flying,
You’re not safe here.
I wonder if this is my therapy,
Speaking to a blank page,
It was always easier than-
Reading the disappointment on your face.
There is a storm inside me,
I let it rage inside,
Feel the thunder build,
Lightening on my tongue,
Dare to cross me-
And you will learn dear,
That I will leave you in ruins.
You make me feel like a burden,
Wire my mouth shut so I can’t speak,
So you don’t have to hear my pain,
You want me to be the strong one,
To carry the mistakes for the both of us.
I thought you understood,
We were on the same page,
Or were all the words I said-
Devoid of all meaning to you?
It’s almost funny really,
You say you love me,
And yet you still continue to hurt me.
I’m biting my tongue,
Enough to make me bleed,
Holding back all the words,
I should have said,
For you to understand,
The hurt you inflict.